So there I was, all set to forge ahead with an industry qualification/award - my set was chosen and certainly good enough to get onto that first rung of the ladder. It would have been a rush to get all the supporting documentation together, sure, but it was not beyond the realms of possibility as most of it is to hand anyway.
Then there was a presentation about the process.
And I decided to change tack.
So, I am not putting myself forward digitally for the Spring round, I am going to hold off for the Autumn and, I think, I may attend in person for the assessment rather than take a purely digital approach.
This will allow me to link my panel in with a commercial project that is just incredibly exciting in and of itself, but the photography that I can foresee for that project should also create something really quite special when presented as a panel. It also means I can make it a statement of where I am going rather than selecting pieces from the past, and to me that is important. I don’t want to be judged on where I am coming from but the direction I am travelling in, if that makes sense.
So this isn’t a rout, more a tactical retreat to regroup and come back stronger. If I can come back strong enough and attend in person then I have the chance to gain something better from the awards than a licentiateship (the base rung on the awards ladder) and that really would be a vote of confidence to (perhaps) quiet the voice that builds the imposter syndrome.
